Well, I'm a bit puzzle don't know real know, what's going on but two weeks have gone bye... I still not motivated enough to start painting. Even though, I'm a bit closer, It still no quite close enough to make feel good about myself. I must find the way to cope with this my mental stress had caught out with me. I can do better.

I think I may have an idea. I'll star by doing research. I'll do researchuse on my two favorite subjects: art, and Philosophy have always found inspirational quotes. I'm sure will find one or two magnificent quotes, that will help me to ease my stressese are subjects I'm familiar with would find the answer I hope! Lets see how much progress I had made after couple days. I'm willing to try anything. Art and Philosophy always have gave me inspiration. Better yet I'll look for good inspirational quotes always have brought my spirit up. We will see happen next time I sit down to try to express my thoughts on front of a blank screen. I should be allright though.

I'm won't give up on my art. Philosophical inspiration is good for the mind. I most find Philosophical inspiration in the science of knowledge. The truth will reveal itself. I need to keep in open mind. this year is about to end. It will be nice if the New Year brings me good things, lets see what it brings me!

Another week had ended, and I still not begun painting. I had try few thing here and there nothing have work yet. I'm trying to find the way back to my art, so I can start painting again.
Sometimes I feel a little down that painting isn't there. I don't even want to listen to music, nor want to write on this blog.
All these things are dear to me. More ever it seems I don't have the motivation to do anything. It's awful feeling to react. I will try to find the way out of this hollow feeling, that had taken over me.
At this moment I'm experiencing an ugly phenomenon. The Heck with this feeling, or what ever it may had taken over my creativity.
I have been doing a lot of thinking about how to get out of this hole that I found my self.
I come to the realization that it's time to break this nonsense pattern.

sometimes I feel a little down that painting isn't there, I don't know what's come on. However it seems I don't have the motivation to do the important things in my life. I have been doing a lot of thinking. I came to the realization that I must be going through a tough period in my life. I must turn everything around. I need to get back Sunday is the beginning of my week. I don't know what's come on, but I need to end what ever is going in my life that is not working out.
I must figure out the way to get rid of this spell. I need to find my self, because I'm lose in this unfortunate world. As soon that happen. I should be able to resume painting in not time. I'm running out of time.

Sunday is the beginning of my week. I don't know what's come on,but I need to end what ever is going in my life that is not working out.
I must figure out the way to get rid of this spell. I need to find my self, because I'm lose in this unfortunate world. As soon that happen. I should be able to resume painting in not time. I'm running out of time.

I still haven't hard time in starting to paint every day. Some times seen like I wouldn't ever finish the piece that I'm working on. It's taking longer then what I thought. I have been busy doing what? I don't know what! I guess doing a little be here an a little be there, pooh! The day it's gone, just like that!. I didn't even get to touch one brush to make a stroke. Every time that I pass by, I look the living room, there is the painting. There it is setting in the living room calling my name, begging to be finish. I just can't do it yet. I need to snap out of it. Right at this moment I'm having a hard time concentrating in my art.

I spend a lot of time talking to my girl's dog, her name is Sugar. She is a beautiful Shih tzu. A well behavior dog. She doesn't give any problems. If I may add, she is my pal.

I can't see to get in to the rhythm of painting as much I would like to. Seen to became more hard to get inspire, after my family came to visit me for a long while. I just can't see to get in the rhythm of anything. I'm trying very hard to fight my loneliness, even though I not quite satisfy with my performance. My inspiration is very weak it not enough to make feel like painting nor study my computer graphics curse.
I think that I'm in little trouble. I need to snap out of this face.
This what it's just a face nothing else more.

In a different note, I had been customizing my computer for the last few weeks. It's done. I found a nice internet radio. This radio stations plays my favor rock N roll music. This sweet music makes my days go faster. Music from Rush to The grateful Dead. My computer looking just fine.

I have begun painting very little though, I think it's a good thing. Little by little I will get in to the rhythm. Some times take me a while, because solitude is my companion, it's very sad that isn't good. Thinking about it, and analyzing why I feel lonely at times it help to snap out it, and when I do. Then, I'm alright. I'm my self again, ready to confront what ever may come next.

I spend a lot of time in front of my computer. Customizing my computer it is time consuming. My computer looks very nice, if I may say that my self. One of the elements to complete the task is the radio. At the moment I'm looking for the best internet radio. It doesn't need to be expense. It must have good sound,and a variety of stations with my favorite music. Oh curse, one of them needs to be classic Rock.

On the last few days. I had been having a little trouble focus in my goals. I really need to figure out, what is going on. It could be because, I haven't hear from my family for some time, until today. I've been very concern about my wife. She is taking care of my two little girls. On occasion, she doesn't call me in days. Even though, she usually does this, I still can't get used to it, and problably I never will. I miss them very much. She, and the girls are my life, they mean everything to me. I need to pull my self together, put my shin up and continue my journey.

I had put my art (painting) in hold. Don't know why. Tomorrow, it is another day. I resume painting, need to start painting again. As soon as I start, the soon I will feel alright. One thing, I should do is to set up my art supplies for tomorrow. as soon I finish writing on this, should do it.This way, It won't be any reason, why, I shouldn't start tomorrow... Enough for today

Took me a while to get to this point. Today I start working again on my painting, I also did my reading. Probable will take me a few weeks to finish this painting. Tomorrow, I will continue to begin with the rest of the others activities that I had line up. I have a long way to go. One by one is the way that I will tacked them. I need to reschedule my tasks in the days ahead, and follow the schedule for the rest of the journey toward my goals.

My Art is important part of my life as well my reading. Blogger is another achievement that I would like to accomplish. I will learn how to write, and maintain this blog in the way it can reflect my create personality as well my artistic one. I know I can do it.

My family went home a week a go. After a week, I haven't done anything yet. I need to continue doing, what I have been doing all along. I had been trying to reach my goals. I don't know how many times. I had said that I going to start over. I do need to work toward my goals though! This is very important in my life. I will never give up, I'll always keep trying in reaching my goals. Some times seen difficult accomplish, what I had set to do the day before. I believe I need to have more discipline in my life. I'm lock of it. I know discipline is one of the four famous "D" I know I should have them in my life. The four "D"they make things roll. Dedication; Desire; discipline; and Decision to have these in me, my heart can do what ever it may wishes. I'm looking for tomorrow to have the four "d's" It will be wonderful to wake up tomorrow with a great attitude. I'll wake up with the four "DC" in my guts I know I will. Tomorrow will be a new start for me.

Hopefully today, I will try to begin a new chapter in my life.I need to start adjusting my schedule better. A little more productive it will be great. I have a few issues that I need to work on. As a matter of fact I need to get rid of them. Tomorrow morning, I will like to wake up with some inspiration,and start a new day with brand new attitude. There are few goals that I would like to accomplish. Life is great I just need try to manage my time better. First of all I need to finish an oil painting that I start it while back. There are another responsibilities need to taking care. Concentration, and persistence are the key of success. Wish me luck. Thank you.

Almost two weeks have gone by, it feels like couple days in stead of eleven days. It hasn't been easy to come back to the usual routine after spending time being a father a husband. Two days a go my family came back, and I still trying to start back to my old routine a realize now there is not time to waste.
Time is gold. It's a precious thing.

For the last few days I have been trying to get some rest at the same time getting my thoughts together I guess, I haven't done much. Now, my family is back, I hadn't catch up yet. I'm still behind in everything that should be done. I need to pull my self together, start working a little harder to catch up with the agendas in my life.

The time is now. My family will come to visit twice a month. From now on I will try to sit down at my computer as often as I can. I think been a father is a blessing, and a great experience. My daughters came to visit for a while. For the last six weeks I have been a full time husband ,and a father. After my wife went home, I found my self learning more about her and noticing there is more to learn about her. There is more than my eyes can see. I found it out a great deal about her. Now I love her more than ever. I had a wonderful time getting to know her. Its a good thing believe or not. It was fun time learning about her. She is such a beautiful and special woman that I'm so bless to have her in my life. Perhaps I may say we are bless to have each other. We have a wonderful family. It has been a bumpy road to happiness, but, it was work it every little bump.

Today, it was a good day. I was able to spend quality time with my daughters. For the first time in a while I'm able to sit at my computer. I'm typing something even though, I haven't finish with my chores there is more to be done. I just want to share a thought. Next week I sure things will be back to normal. I will be alone my two girls are going home with mommy I was looking for to keep one of daughters put her to school. I don't think that is going to happen this year. Well always is next year. Though I may have her for the last three months of the school year. Today she went home with mommy. This mean I can begin to work on my daily routine getting it back to the way it was a few months a go.

I was wrong when I said that I'm in charge of days, because I'm not. My girls are. They control everything that I do. Has been three weeks since last time I had sit at my computer to do something personal besides checking my email. Being a father it's great experience though I need more hours in the day to complete my chores. The coming week I will try once again to study, and to do my painting

Many days have passed. Today, I have taking a little time out from my girls. My wife took them for the day to one of hers family reunion. Tomorrow is the beginning of another week in which I would try to focus in continues with my regular days. I need to take command of days. After all I think I'm in charge of them. I being having little problem managing my time.

I haven't be able to manage my time better, because of that I didn't do much, I need to organize my chores around my two girls. Taking care of my little girls it has been tougher than I have anticipated. Now my days are long in the same talking they are short, and gone faster then ever, that I feel that I need more hours in the day.
I need to start painting, continue with my computer curse, and Oh curse writing this blog. I'm pretty sure that soon I will pull myself together so, I will be able to keep up with my every days responsibilities.

It has been more then a week. Since I had put down my thoughts. I haven't be able quite yet to take control of my time. When I said that I was going to try to keep with my regular schedule while my two daughters were visiting. I mean it, but It isn't easy to take care two little girls mostly when I'm not used to it to haven them for than a couple days. My baby is 18 months, and she gets into everything that I left around the house. I'm afraid to say that she is exploring all hers surroundings it's more than that. I mean she grabs everything that it's in the wrong place. I guess she see it other wise. It's in the right place for her. While her sister does the same thing. After a long day, I'm dead tired. I don't have any energy left in me, I just want to go to bed. Today I had force my self to sit at my computer to write these few words. Don't get me wrong I love spending time with my girls. I wouldn't have any other way. I love my girls, they are my inspiration.

Art is a way of expression of deep feelings, Art is a series of paint strokes in a canva, It represent the artist's ideas. Ideas that will be seen by many individuals with different views. People appreciate art from a variety of perspectives. Amazingly everyone has a different interpretation of piece of art. When I paint I try to keep that in mind. I enjoyed watching people making all sort of interpretations of one my paintings.

The weekend is over I didn't acomplish much, but I haven't give up yet. I'm planning to keep doing my best,and used all my efforts to continue with my schedule. My inspiration haven't run out yet. My daughters will be with me for the rest of the week. I'm very hopeful that about the end of the week I should be able to see the product of my inspiration through my painting.

Friday, another week has ended. I had set up my paints for the weekend. I'm pretty much inspired,
I think I can do some serious painting. Will see how much I can accomplish in few hours a day. I will have my
daughter, she also needs some attention, but I think I can give her some art classes. My day will be a very productive one. I will love to see my little girl becoming an artist. It will be great. To me art is one of the best techniques of relaxation. The high that I get when I paint I get a high that it's unexplainable is so intense. Painting, it just relax me. I have two days to work on my painting. I would like to see it closer to the finish piece.

It's about 3:AM easter time. I don't know how can I begin to tell you how challenge is to be a father, I'm watching my five year old daughterfor the next two weeks. She is a wonderful little princess that needs a little chaping up. She had some rough edges. I need a lot of pacience, I trying my best to keep up with the challenge. After a long day, I'm ready to end my day I'm very pleased with today's agenda.

Wow! Another day has gone by, just like time is taking its quick curse. Today was a good day I spent my second day with Kyla one of my daughters she is a five year old princess.I will have her for the next two weeks. She takes a lot of my time. Though,I'm planning to keep with my regular schedule.I worked for little while on the computer graphics curse. Now I'm writing on this blog. I had a great day!

For the last couple days, I haven't been able to login to my blog kind of work out for me though. My daughters were visiting. I love them very much,they are my inspiration. When the're here I work hard. After a long day, they are finally sleep they are angels when they 're sleep so beautiful. I enjoy watch them sleep. When they are awake they are two whirlwind, hurricane nothing in theirs path is safe. They're the most important thing in my life. My two beautiful, and enjoyable little girls are my joy. I love them very much. Wouldn't have any other way. When they visit me, I'm not able to sit at my computer everyday. A least today I got a break, I was able to sit down to write on my blog. I'm kind of tired, I'm off to bed. Is very late the day has ended it.Chau!

Today, I was a little inspired. I work on my computer graphics curse. I learn something
about how to apply bitmap extrude mode to an object; it's' pretty neat kind of interesting if you are into art. A simple drawing with one clickof the mouse it's turn into bitmap. Applying bitmap extrude effet to a drawing,is kind of turning the light off & on this effect is awesome.I can't begin to discribe it; the only thing that I can say is I must learn it well. This one of the many subjects of the ccomputer graphics curse teaches. Hey, I'm learning along the line.

I've not been painting. Lately, I've been feeling a bit down, when, I feel this way, I don't feel inspire. Sometimes the inspiration isn't there it is gone. The key of successful painting is to have an inspirational environment. Inspiration:To be inspired by the beauty of the thought of yourself creating a composition out your head. Creativity and inspiration is the key to a successful Art section.

Tomorrow is another day, I hope to have a fresh start I should have. My daughters are an inspiration to me. something is missing. Looking back I lost my inspiration way back I need to work hard to pull my self of this awful situation and atart finding my way to my artistic inspiration.

Day after day that goes by, the composition seems to be futher apart in coming together as it should have. It turned out that is going to take me more time then what I thought to finished it. When is done is going to be a nice painting. Art is a emotion that I need to express my passion on my art just like the one I have when I hold my beatiful wife in my arms.

Two days have gone by, I've not been able to sat at my computer to write down my thoughts. I'd like to write on my blog though. Is very awkward to describe the way that I feel. I wish I could so, I can work on the problem. As I was saying I'm artist. Inspiration make my world go around. I need to be inspired to be able to function, and to do things, I care about,

One thing for sure, I'll lean how to write. I have Never been to crazy about writing never-the-less creative writing, I have a challenge in front of me, that's for sure. I'll try to learn the art of creative writing. Painting on the other hand is what I'm good at it when I get around and do it. Sometimes I get like this no motivation what so ever. I've been trying to snap out of it and at all. It's very hard to get in the mood of painting or a least to write. I've no inspiration what so ever. Inspiration it's hard to come by for me. While I have been with out inspiration feeling empty I must say, I don't know how much longer this face will last. So far I would say I still on check.

The Painting, I've been working on its setting on the living room. It is a small composition no name yet. I haven't come out with one yet, but l not to worry I'll come out with a fancy one that will fit it just right. I'm hoping to finished it by the second week of July. I surely hope so, I don't want to find myself at the end of the year with piece setting on the easel not finished yet. It wouldn't be good.

I had been doing quite a bit of hard thinking. I should be able to continue writing on this blog. Even though, at this moment, I have a lot of things going on in my life. My plate is full. I'm taking a curse on Computer graphics
and another thing is I'm trying hard to have a decent relationship with a beautiful lady. My two adorable daughters Kyla a five years old and Farrah a two years old. Are visiting me for the next few weeks, my two beautiful little girs, they would need my full attention. I'm also working on my art - I've been working on a nice composition that I started it a while back. Its coming along fairly well. Lately I haven't put too much of my time or effort on it. I found my self very occupied. Lately I have been noticing days seem too be short, and going by faster than usual. I hadn't enough time to deal with all these. Some how I must find the way to try to handle my chores. I think I should be able to do it.

Hey, What do you know? I have something to say. I will start tell you a bit about my self. I'm an artist, I love art and Art is my name. Cool!
I express my self through art. writing is something, I haven't tried yet. Futhermore, I had never been too aficionado to the art of writing. I found my self with a new challage. Start a "weblog" I have an open mind - I believe in learning new things. Just Yesterday, I learn a bit about weblogging. I'd be learning the art of writing. Id have alot of fun. While, writing on my first blog should be a good experience. I would do a bit of thinking than usual though, besides I 'll learn more about the internet. Will see what happen. Stay put. You all return!You all heared me!

This is the history bihind this blog. It cane to be when a friend of mine who has a blog on Serendigital.org ask me. Have you ever thought about writing a blog? I said not really, after a while, he kind of talked to me into it. Next thing I kow I found my self writing on the internet.This is how this blog came to be, this is my first blog ever. I don't know to bigin or how to go about it but, I' sure I would figure out down the line then, I will do my very best no to put my self an awkward situation and try to make sense of my writing. I'm pretty new of expressing my self in writing and letting my thoughts to be free.

Another friend of mine has also a blog on his site ChooseAbility.org if can do it so I should be able to write a blog. Will see what happen if I allow my self to think a bit hard just for a minute or two. I'd never know if I don't try to see what happen if I only give a try I maybe surprise of what could come out of this head of mine. here it comes, Oh well it will be on the next entry. Chau!